Opening up here was a BIG mistake, I only became much more disordered than before, thanks to Artchic for example, so much for helping

I’m on the brick of dying, have eating issues and even dehydration issues
No one cares about that. My friends are no longer friends because they don’t care about me
I WANT TO ****ING DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Disclaimer - if I get hospitalized, my life is gone, and I’ll make sure to dig that grave on my own if that happens
Sensing me to hospitalization is a sign of disrespect to the fact that medications destroy you on the long term and cause more misery than an improved life which has been rotten away by people who have not been sued and disciplined for their destructive behaviors towards other people like me which are left in eternal ruins