(depressme)

I could have written hafl your post, although not as eloquently. That feeling of flatness - being neither up or down is truely awful. You're right in that some of it may be a meds side effect, so talking to your Dr., might help - I know in my case my risperidone makes me emotionally flat. It's hard to deal with racing thoughts. I've found mindfullness based meditation to be helpful, I love Jon Kabat Zin's CD's Mindfullness for beginners. After awhile they helped me with my racing thoughts.

I wonder how much of this is from working three jobs - that doesn't give you a lot of down time just for yourself. Is it possible that if you had more free time, you could find something that you were truly passionate about, which would make you happy.

I really hope that you are able to come out of this flat place.

--splitimage