Good for you LR, and good luck. Take deep breaths while you are behind the chair.

I can't speak to the addictive / abuse potential of benzos but I will just say, I have only taken ativan I handful of times in the past couple of years and the occasions were: 2-3 times during the week when my mother almost died, and three times due to therapy issues. So, it might seem like therapy stress is not major but in my experience it can be for some of us. It just taps into really deep things.