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Originally Posted by yagr
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With those three facts in mind, it seems overwhelmingly obvious that one of two things is happening:...
2. I want to hurt my chances of survival...
If I took any pleasure in his reaction, it was short lived...
Look, I get that I shot myself in the foot. If I had to do it over again, I would do it differently. Given another chance I'd like to think that I would answer however I needed to in order to get the help I need and to hell with trying to be open with them. But I don't know if I would; I've got this real visceral reaction to lying or misrepresenting myself...
But really, answering honestly gets the tests thrown out and me branded a liar - which shoots me in the foot. This might have been a bad choice but there's that whole thing about doing the same thing over and over expecting different results - I was trying to do something different, and this was the only thing I could think of. If you can think of another option, I'd be grateful if you'd share it...
The last psychologist I saw was a thirty minute meeting with a fellow hired by Social Security. Here's an example of my thinking:...
Dr. "Can you tell me the last five presidents?"
Me: "Of the United States?"
Dr. "Yes."
Me: "Does last include current?"
Dr. "Excuse me?"
Me: "If you asked me what I've done the last five mornings, you probably wouldn't expect me to start with, 'I talked to you', you'd probably want me to start with the 'last' morning not including this one."
Dr. "Oh, sure. Yes, by inauguration."
Me: "Trump, Obama, Obama..."
Dr. "Okay, not by inauguration...last five individuals who were President of the United States, starting with the current one."...
You're right, I don't get to choose the test format, but the questions are often asked so sloppily that I simply can't answer them...
I don't get irritable when I'm not well. Apparently everyone else does. I could begin to be more socially acceptable and demonstrate irritability when I am not feeling well. It would be an act, but the question doesn't specify whether you are acting or not - just do you get irritable. Anyway, that kind of manipulation - it's the only other thing I can think of...
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So...you irritate other people, but you dont get irritated. Thats like when my mother used to brag that she didnt get depressed - and my brother and i looked at each and my dad and said, "no, you just depress everyone else around you."
I know your game - i played it myself. Or rather, my introjects played it on me. Thats why i say, the only way out is to make a choice. Or hope you make it to age out of the system, i.e., to retirement age. You are or at least were more likely to get ssdi after age 55. Make a choice.