thank you sweet. reading your response did help me a little. im just so hurt and i haven't heard back from her since i said at the end i wouldnt be coming today. our apt is at 4 but i'm not going. unless she calls me in the meantime. i don't know why thats so important but it just is. i'm so hurt and upset i'm not willingly going back there to continue to feel hurt unless she calls me with some resassurance and comfort that it will be ok. im not going to get in touch with her at all until she does with me. is it possible for a T to lose a patient like that? she must call eventually right? if not, she really doesn't care just like i thought. this is so painful...