Feeling normal when drinking, I completely understand that. I've been doing that myself for the past few weeks, along with a couple other ways to self-medicate.

You're probably right, given the right med combo, you could be just fine. At the same time, the meds will only ever do so much and you also have to treat any underlying problems. That's where therapy comes in. If it's not helping you now, give it time, if it's still not helping you after a while, I'd try a different therapist and/or a different kind of therapy.

Isolation is a hard one. I don't know if you'll understand this, but when I become isolated it's this weird feeling of being unbearably lonely, practically begging for someone to keep me company, and wanting to be alone all at the same time. Best thing I've done to work with this is making myself be around people I know at least twice a week.

If you need someone to talk to, I'm here. I'll keep an eye on this thread and my inbox. Take care.