Ah, J.... (this was 'our' song all those many years ago! I sing it with fondness now.) T brought her up yesterday evening in the midst of our discussion about my er... feelings about T. It was an uncomfortable conversation but I stayed very present for it and she was pretty amazed by that, I'm fairly certain the only reason I was so calm and 'in my body' was precisely because she mentioned J... since when I think about J, I go into a very calm place in my heart. The memory of our summer together in 1986 I experience with nothing but fondness and a contented sigh. Every time I hear this song, I feel it.

I don't know what just made me share that right now.