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Originally Posted by MRT6211
*TW: Self-harm*
Earlier today I was contemplating reaching out to T over the phone because I’ve had a lot going on and I’m majorly stressed, and as a result, I’m having very bad urges to cut. They aren’t subsiding. I didn’t want to bother T because I feel as if I’ve been too needy lately, but now I know if I engage in the behavior this weekend, she’s going to be disappointed in me for not reaching out to her like I’m supposed to.  I guess all I can do is try my best to use my skills to get through the weekend. I’ve just been in such a bad place recently. I feel like my whole life is falling apart. |
When I first got sober, I felt I was screaming at the moon. The urge to drink was so bad.
All I can say is with time it gets easier.
Journey your feelings. Email T if phoning feels to intimate at the moment.
Sometimes just seeing T's written words was enought. I didn't particularly want to engage in telephone talk. In able to tolerate my intense emotions now. I couldn't then. Just trudging through the mud was all I could do. But thats how is done.