so most of you know my story with what happened with my former t. for those that don't a basic synopsis is that we
I was basically pressure to file a civil lawsuit. it was civil because what happened is NOT illegal in my state... although it is in some States
the civil lawsuit went on for almost 2 years and was settled during a mediation in November 2012
thru the settlement I was given $115,000. but a third of that went to health insurance leins and a third went to my attorney (she could have taken most of it but didn't)
so I got a third of that amount. that money went into a special kind of trust fund for people on disability. that meant the money was regulated by this trust and I had to request for them to pay for things. it wasn't like a regular trust where I could go to an atm and pull money out. my attorney and t set this up because thy knew I would blow it. it paid for my subsequent treatment for healing me from the trauma of my former t
this trust was how I have been paying my current therapist. I found out yesterday that the trust has been depleted. there's no more money in it. t has seen me on a sliding scale this whole time in which I pay $25 for a session
I contacted t about the trust being at $0.00.
I'm worried t won't continue to see me. I am up for a promotion at work to full time... so I could probably pay him myself when that happens. but it's still all up in the air.
t has charged me as low as $12.50 a session 4 years ago when he first started his private practice. t has said before that he thinks it's better if I pay some amount for my therapy in order to make me feel responsible for my recovery. he said he thinks it's valuable because it provides an incentive to actually work in therapy and not go there n **** around and play games etc
I agree with t on that. he even suggested donating to a charity every month rather than paying him. so I know t is not so much concern about the monetary aspects in regards to him being paid
however I feel bad for asking t to see me for free during this time. t knows about my financial struggles. it's also hard to talk about the money aspect in my therapy. t admitted it is an awkward conversation for him as well
my overall worry is that t will not see me until I can pay him. as it stands right now I don't even have my regular time this week (Wednesdays at 1300)because I opened up my availibility for my job so I can be full Time. like I said I've contacted t about the trust fund and also the scheduling issue
t hasn't responded but it's Saturday (t does not work on Saturdays).) he's definitely texted me outside his work hours before tho. it's also not been that long since I texted him
but now I have this huge anxiety about the situation
this is mostly a thread for me to process all this information and hopefully put it outside my mind
thank you for reading my novella lol
