I know this . I know for a fact that nothing will change or improve. So why don't I just end this miserable life of mine ?
Ok there are reasons that are stopping me from doing this. There are people that would be hurt , not many but a few.
But I am longing to die. To be out of this life . There is absolutely no point in me being here . Pointless .
Also society makes everyone judge others on looks . I am not attractive because I do not look after myself and I am overweight . A couple of weeks ago a stranger shouted out the window for me to go on a diet . I notice that people are also meaner in general to me than they used to be when I was slim and attractive. I'm talking about interactions with strangers like when I'm getting my shopping delivered, Or when I was in the hospital with severe health problems , I noticed it then too . I personally don't care how I look because I'm not trying to impress anyone or to find a bf. But others care and judge me for it . I can tell in people's tone of voice , their facial expressions and mannerisms.
I don't know why I am here and I don't want to be here