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Originally Posted by velcro003
I'm so sorry MRT  I don't think T will be disappointed, maybe just sad for you? I know my T reacts that way when I SH. |
I think she would, because she was pretty disappointed in me last time I did it, almost 5 months ago. But that’s probably mostly because I did it as a means of testing her (although I didn’t realize it at the time) and also because if I do this, it could mean that I can’t go back to school. And when I get in my own way of my goals, she is disappointed in me. But also maybe I’m just projecting my own emotions onto her...not sure
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Originally Posted by Anne2.0
I'm really sorry about the stress and I hope it gets easier soon. I'm not sure why the past tense in your post, can you not reach out over the weekend? If you can, I'd encourage you to.
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No, unfortunately I can’t.
I can only contact her during business hours. I just have to survive until Monday.
In the last 9 months, I’ve only had one relapse with cutting. Before that, I was doing it almost every day. I really don’t want to go back to my old ways, but it’s so hard not to at stressful times like this, because nothing will ever replace the cutting, skills aren’t as strong.