I really kind of depressed myself there (or maybe it's just because I got up earlier than usual today). But there's really only two ways for me: either I abandon a number of languages, and feel like a loser. Or continue, with them devouring the days of my life without a clear benefit, apart from the feeling of performing a task diligently... I mean, I don't even have anyone to brag about my achievements to. (I don't know if here counts. I don't think you can characterize my activity like that fairly.) And rather prefer not to, anyway.
My best hope is that either the economic situation in Russia suddenly improves (and takes me with it), or I get a nice, well-paying job out of nowhere, enabling me to liberally enjoy entertainment in various languages... I mean, all in all, it's not the most outlandish of hopes.
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Social anxiety and possible Aspergers (undiagnosed, but it helps to let you know to more quickly find a common ground).
Life is a journey without a destination.
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