I had a couple of hours nap.Getting something together for dinner,I will eat then work on my letter to the Assessment services,(ATOS).Gonna find myself some peace.I also emailed my MP for help.I am feeling calmer and not so scared. Surprisingly my narcissist sister who abused me for years has been supportive,I don't mix with her or see her in real life anymore as she almost literally killed me but we talk about mum's care via text and she text to support me over this benefits worry.She is unpredictable can be nice but turns nasty,I think when it comes to me she don't like others to abuse me that's her job.It is all confusing cos I am meant to be no contact with her but she did offer words of support and said she wants to help she can't be let in too far she is not to be trusted but she did give me a link to an electric company that does cheaper electric.

I am still shook up emotionally,even if I win my benefits back they can give it for only a year or two so I will have to have continual assessments and it is scary though I asked the MP to intervene and get me a 10 year award whether that will happen I don't know.I have got to go through the assessors report and point out all the inaccuracies and write them up into a letter of complaint.

I have a lot of fear now whereas I was sorting out therapy the CBT counseller was assessing me to see if CBT was suitable or if another therapy was appropriate and I was going to weight management class.I won't be able to afford it so much now,travel expenses mount up I go everywhere by taxi and can't walk anywhere or use the buses so her lying about my mobility is a massive blow.