Thanks everyone. It has been a bit of a struggle. I did have a word with my boss who told me a few stories of her own. Made me feel slightly better. I have another call arranged this week but I'm taking it slowly and just arranging them one at a time.

My boss was pretty good and I got a bit teary when I told her about it. She did offer some support but obviously doesn't know the extent of the issue. I feel a bit trapped really. When I feel like I HAVE to do something and have no choice, I start to get fed up. I always like to be able to choose what I want to do but working for someone else I suppose you give up some of that right, which in a way doesn't feel right to me.

I've been sort of dreading going into work lately whereas before I really liked my job. I'm finding it hard to motivate myself to do tasks and spend a lot of time struggling to engage with things, I think it's honestly just thrown me off completely and now I have doubts about my ability to do the job. I'm also finding I'm always counting down to the weekend now too. I really don't want to wish my life away by just living for the weekend so to speak.

I think I'll just see how I feel in a few weeks as once I've done this task, things may improve !!