i should be so happy. i have no worries at this point, for once. but i'm so emotionally flat. i have been depressed since early childhood, never been in therapy, been on and off meds for the last 4 or 5 years. i'm on my 2nd week of cymbalta now (60mg) and i know it hasn't really had time to get in my system. but i want to be happy so bad. i can't even cry, i can't really smile, i just don't know. i get easily agitated and that is the only response i seem to have. i would be perfectly happy sitting on my couch not moving or talking. all i want to do is sleep. it's not the meds because this was even worse prior to starting the medicine. i just need something to look forward to. i have a 6 year old son at home who really needs his mom to smile and play once in a while. any encouragement would be happily received. prayers are also welcome.