Yeah Mike, it’s like, we spent the last 19 years self-employed to avoid any social entanglements. We have to have a reason/job/goal to be socializing and we won’t do it on a personal level. We always met new clients, but we have a part that is very vocal who did the meetings that sold our talents and did not much beyond that for we are timid at best.

When I had relationships, or an Other did, we we’re switching but didn’t realize/know it....looking back today like you said. Every relationship hit dirt because an Other would be like hating and soon they would destroy what we have built...some wanted in and some wanted out...can’t make everyone happy. So when not working, we sit in our room typing on the internet.

We work a physical job separated from other co-employees which makes it a plus, of course we finally have our public relations alters that deal with people contact....

Something that I noticed is that once I graduated high school, I had no boundaries and no daily scheduled time structure to adhere to- we fell apart left on our own devices leading to very bad life decisions based on self-loathing and hate. That’s when I discovered that there was something wrong with me and have struggled with ever since. Being in an institution where routine is delegated such as school, jail, or psych hospital is where we thrived. Free time and space leaves us in limbo as to what to do...especially since it’s an inner struggle to decide on a project unilaterally.

It seems like I slip in and out of Disorder...considering us as just a Multiple at times...but only when the times are good though....everyone functioning as a well oiled machine living day by day. When we have a system wide snafu or breakdown over some situation or event, butt hurt feelings, or confusion and negativity permeates the masses....then it feels like a Disorder.