I'm still trying to come to terms with my gender and sexuality. I know I identify as male, but since I was born female, that makes me transgender. I also know that I'm attracted to other men (trans or cis) so that would make me gay. On their own, I don't have much of a problem accepting either of these aspects of my identity, but both of them together make me feel a lot more self-conscious.
There's this idea that a lot of people seem to have that gay trans guys are just straight girls that fetishize gay men/relationships. I know I don't identify as a girl, but hearing people say this sort of thing still bothers me. It doesn't help that I have a bit of a hypersexuality problem... but that's another story.
Does anyone have any advice on how I can stop feeling so down on myself about this? I feel like it would help if I didn't have such a problem with my dysphoria, but there isn't much I can do for that at the moment - I'm not able to get any surgeries yet, or even start hormone therapy since my parents won't let me until I'm 18.
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