All we ever really want from our parents is to be loved and understood. It is such a disappointment when we don't feel like they are trying. I completely understand. I reached out to a friend a couple of times with no response so I feel like I am on my own as well. So hurtful and even though I have kids and a husband I want to end my life as well but don't want my kids to find me or put that on them. Everyone else I don't care about though.