I feel sorry you are so hurt. It's so hard to feel like this, I know. I think with therapists (not knowing your particular T and the relationship between you, just dropping in here) they usually feel that "we" are in charge of the therapy. I.e., that it is our right to leave when and if we want. So, rarely do they call to "check up" on us if we leave or ask us to come back. That's just the nature of it and doesn't mean that she doesn't care or doesn't want to see you again. This is obviously bothering you very much and the way to resolve it is to talk to her about it. There is no way she can get in your head and no way to get in hers so you need to bring your feelings out in the open where she can respond, and you can hear her response. It's worth a try you have nothing to lose. you're already hurting enough, this is only going to make it hurt more, not knowing.