may i offer a different perspective for you. you are younger than me and it pains me just to even look at your 'list'. i've never been outside the country; i was NOT able to finish college and highly doubt i ever will be able to; and i have no support system.

i've been in this struggle for as long as i can remember, and i can't even remember my youth! i gave up trying meds & t's & p-docs years ago. i don't have that fight left in me any more.

but part of me thinks everything i've been thru and holding it together all these years HAS to count for something, even if barely anyone knows it. cuz most in my shoes wouldn't have held on this long - so i was told! i'm not sure what for hope i have left, but something inside me won't let me give up.

so even if you don't understand, look at the little things in life and take the small joys! you are luckier than some others, even if it's hard to see! so hang in there