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Old Apr 29, 2018, 06:08 AM
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I have to say that after writing this I just reminded myself to do what I needed to do to care for myself and strangely I found that no one minded. Like I ordered what I wanted at dinner and didn't eat it all so took it home (no one cared), after dinner I went for a hike to feel better (no one cared), then I retreated to the basement to relax and have alone time (no one cared).

So the thing is, I'm spending time with my mom and stepdad. My mom has done a lot of work on herself, and my stepdad has always been laid back. (They married when I was an adult.) I think I'm still responding to my father's way of things, which was to always try and please him and that I have to stick to his schedule, and I can't have my own needs.

Yesterday was actually a lot of fun even though I had to redirect my thoughts a lot and manage my energy. I would have more days like that if I can.

Thanks for the support!

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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.

Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien

Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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