You are dealing with a ton of stress, that's for sure. What I also think is true is that you also have significant strengths and personal attributes and they are what led you to medical school and all the achievement that must have come before that. Those things can get you through this difficult time--your intelligence, your ability to work hard, your strength in analyzing situations and problem solving.
I also think the work of a demanding school (especially where it seems like the administrators want you gone) and eventual practice will be stressful, and improving how you respond to stress will help you in the future.
Some in your shoes would be driven by the desire to prove these a holes wrong. As a strategic position, I'd encourage you to project strength in your confidence that you can do whatever they ask of you. Like "bring it. I'm ready."
For the hard times in my life, it's been satisfying to look back and appreciate what I went through and the strength needed to do so. It's given me a sense that I've survived, that I'm still standing, no matter what or who tried to take me out. I hope one day you are able to look back and be impressed about what you overcame-- especially what seems like a lot of unfairness by your school. FWIW, I think you can do this, and the people who are in a position to make recommendations to the school think that too. Sounds like you have good backing. Wish you the best with it all.
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