I'm still struggling. Part of me doesn't even want to write her. I'm mad at her for putting off resolving our problem and making me sit with my feelings for 3 weeks. I was ready to let her go! And now out of spite I want to let her go. It feels like she doesn't care.

But on the other hand, I can only imagine what she is going through. I don't know why, but I have it stuck in my mind that it's either her dog died, one of her parents died, or she had a miscarriage. I know, none of my business. But I worry. I really do care about her, but I'm struggling to put my emotions aside. And it seems like a trap. I was thinking I was putting too much pressure on her, yet now that she needs space, I feel I have no choice but to distance myself.

This is so hard for me!

Here's what I've written so far:
T,
I'm just writing to let you know that I can't really write. You asked me to not talk about the misunderstanding, yet that is the very thing bothering me. You have never restricted me from talking about something. It's really hard to sit with these feelings. It feels like punishment.

I'm miss you. I'm hurting. I'm worried about you. I'll leave it at that. Just know I'm trying my hardest to respect you.

Scarlett