(((((misty)))))
thanks for such a great post. I am really happy that you are doing so well, and that you are so positive. My t has asked me the same question- would knowing really make a difference but for me, unfortunately, it would. Because I have so many unanswered questions and so much of my behaviours today could be a result of that time, I feel I need those answers to have closure. It won't change things, I don't need to face him, I am not needing to work through those specific issues, I just need to KNOW. Then I can have closure from this part of my life, either way. The closure will some solely from knowing- that is the part that is eating away at me.
So congratulations on your work and progress in your t session and I wish you well on the rest of your journey.