I am not sparring anymore
I said nervously
What about patterns?
I never ever won at patterns
At any competition I thought
Most likely blushing
As he spoke away
I also had sat this test
Against my own coaches wishes
Who wasn't happy
That I went out with my friends
At the weekend in clubs.
But I knew my days
Of competing were
Coming to a close.
I was growing up
I had grown disillusioned
With the sport
And I knew it wasn't
Where my true
Talent resided in.
I would never
Be as good as Gail.

I spoke about this
With owner at
My longest lasting job
She was speaking
About doing tai-chi
And how majestic
The patterns looked
I would have loved
To have turned my hand
To practicing patterns
Leaving behind something
That had such
An impact on my
Youth was immensely hard