I have come to a graspable understanding of the underlying ambivalence I have about therapy. It's the internal tug of war, of course, between what I want and the I think I shouldn't want it. I apparently have a very strong 'should' complex. Whenever I say what I want, Should is always louder telling me differently. I can't wait to come back on 5/10 to continue the previous conversation and maybe if there's time talk about this too.

(Be quiet, Should. There's better things you can do. Let's find them.)