Thank you silver, ozzie, fuzzette, and gardnergirl for good thoughts and hugs.

I'm glad that I'm not sinking immediately from such news as I have in the past when life tossed me a bunch of curveballs. Must mean the meds have me 'stable' to a point. This much is good.

Housemate arrived home more worried about dog and rather whatever to the possible/probable move. Said he wants to stay in county with me and dog and find new place somehow.

Been here before in much more dire circumstances.

There are veterinary oncologists in town to choose from if need be for further treatment for pooch. Housemate is now glad to have done well in Vegas this last trip. Can contribute to dog upkeep. Today was a Ben just for a blood test and the visit.

Housemate looks great on paper for rentals financially and I have the great local refs so hopefully that will translate to something opening up in the next two months that will serve the three of us well (dog, housemate and myself........the pack).

Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.

breathing in........breathing out..........still haven't called therapist and won't until tomorrow when I know test results. No sense in freaking more tonight when I know little.

After almost six years in a place I'm not keen on an open house with only a week's notice. I think me and Ms. realtor need to have a chat tomorrow about just what her plans are for this property and how she can work around my schedule.

Sometimes in life lessons are repeated until learned.

Is this current set of circumstances telling me to stop renting and start yurt living?

or was Brezsny right with this? Horoscopes for week of January 13, 2005 </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
Three times recently I've been driving home after 11 p.m. when I've spied a strange scene unfolding at a neighborhood house. The couple that lives there has been sitting around a festively decorated table in the front yard. A group of maybe eight to ten other people has been with them, and they've all been drinking from champagne glasses, making boisterous toasts, laughing heartily, and singing loud songs. I've been tempted to crash their little parties; it's exhilarating to see such late-night outdoor merriment in drizzly 30-degree weather during the bleak post-holiday season. I propose that you make these weirdoes your role models in the coming week, Pisces. Let them inspire you to be lavishly celebratory, convivial, and cheerful, even in seemingly inhospitable circumstances.© 1995-2004, Rob Brezsny. All rights reserved.

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