Dear T,

I still struggle with thoughts and questions about how much I may have contributed to what AbusivePDoc did bc I told him, ‘I care about you.’

Is saying ‘I care about you’ being seductive?

And I have told you that I love you. I probably told AbusivePDoc that I loved him. I probably felt I did. I was telling the truth both times.

Did you feel I was being erotically seductive with you? Ever?

Why did AbusivePDoc hear ‘I love you’ and sexualize it? Do you think he thought I was being seductive? How much is my fault?

I feel like part of everything was my fault.