Maybe there's been a lot more going on with the OP than rejection. You're not in his head. And no, suicide isn't selfish, at least not anymore than everyone who forces the individual to stay. Pain is pain. Most wouldn't think it selfish for someone who's in a lot of terminal physical pain to choose assisted suicide after they've tried everything. No, I don't want the OP to die, I don't want anyone to die. But to invalidate his pain by saying it's "stupid" is messed up and isn't going to help him in any way shape or form, so why say it?