I also wanted to say that since I crashed a bit last night, I was working on my own recovery today.

I decided to speak up.

I sent my T an email saying that I struggled a lot in our session. Specially when, against my direct request, she whipped out and read allowed portions of the letter I had written. I knew I would struggle if this happened and she did it that way anyway. I said I realized that I couldn't hide behind my writing, but that I would prefer that she try to address this differently next time.

I really felt like talking yesterday but when she did that I just couldn't deal with it. It was like I had all this stuff in my head that I wanted to get out and it suddenly just moved out of reach despite my efforts to say connected to it. Now I have to wait 3 week because she will be on vacation. I wonder if she will read that email to me next time?