Thanks for your responses.
I’m not large by most people’s standards but I’m fighting a losing battle.
I’ve got so many pre existing medical conditions that prevent me from losing weight/exercising that it’s verging on the ridiculous. Eg a herniated brainstem means that I can only go for walks at nanna speed (which burns zero kcal)
I fight the feeling of impending doom, knowing that I’m going to just get bigger and bigger.