Also, as I write this I have been up on chat all night to distract myself from SI. I know that if I stop being on chat and get ready for bed, I will probably do it, and I have been pretty much tempted all night. It's just past 6am as I write this. I don't even know why i am bothereing resisting so much, since I know I will do it tomorrow anyway. Today that is. Heck I am even going up into town tomorrow to buy wound care stuff since I have hardly anything. It is so stupid. And I ended up eating a load of chocolate earlier and I had a lot to eat before that. I am just stuffing my face recently . It makes me feel guilty and I will just end up a fat ******.