Judy because you're using conversations in your head with T didn't mean you're not facing up to your life as is.
Is still you doing it.
Until T I had my abusive mothers voice in my head berating me.
Not I am able to develops a healthy inner voice because of T.
It sounds like maybe it's your negative internal voice telling you it's somehow wrong to be being these monologues with T.
Just means your works not finished.