I've been thinking. That doctor is right. I still do have a lot of unused skin. Skin I can damage. Skin I can destroy myself on.

So today I did something I haven't done in the past 2 years. I sat down and hurt myself simply because I like it. Not because the emotional pain was unbearable, not because I couldn't take it anymore, not because I lost control over my behavior.

Simply because I wanted to.

It was nice. I don't know why I stopped. I should do that more often.