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Originally Posted by ~Nemesis
I'll explain… hopefully I'm coherent enough.
I have been in therapy for a little over than a year now. In the last few months, I've noticed I'm having increasing in number conversations with my therapist in my head. Seriously, it happens a LOT, whenever I have time for myself… it bothers me!
At first, I thought I was developing romantic feelings for her (sometimes I do have them… I'm familiar with the term transference), than I figured it's okay and that it's just a way for me to process thoughts and overall feelings.
Currently my social life are not skyrocketing (…) and most of my interactions are with my family.
Only recently, I opened up to my therapist, and started making a progress towards getting in touch with my feelings (and slowly removing the defense mechanism of rationalizing every single thing).
Now my problem is that I feel like I'm not really facing my loneliness and issues. I feel like a little girl with an imaginary friend instead of an adult handling life as it is, understanding that I'm only with myself when I'm alone… I feel like I push forward to promote my mental wellness in accordance to what I would like to say to her, or share with her in our next session, as opposed to really introspecting and figuring out on my own what it is that I really feel, think and want for myself.
I can't seem to succeed in stopping the talking in my head (I don't hear voices…), and as for now I don't really know how to. However, I want to.
Does anyone else experience anything similar and can relate? or maybe have an opinion about that? Any suggestions on how to perceive or resolve the issue?
If you made it this far - I would really appreciate it if you share your thoughts with me. Thanks in advance 
[BTW I realize I should bring this up with her, and I will, at some point…it's time will come] |
I think this is totally normal and expected. Isn't this what they mean when they talk about internalizing the therapist's voice. I think that it's meant to be a stepping stone and then eventually you begin to internalize your own inner voice in place of it but maybe someone else on here can explain it better.
I have been doing this too for quite a while now. I imagine conversations with my T and what he would say and respond. At first, it was very disconcerting but I read up on it and began to understand it was a 'thing'. I don't think you can stop yourself from the thoughts and the more you try the more frustrating it will be. I would just try and accept the thoughts and conversations. Even enjoy them if you can. It will help you process things too. My mind never stops thinking and at times it gets annoying. I have found things like meditation and yoga to be helpful.