thanks.... actually i have NOT started the depakote yet. it was prescribed to me but i dont take it. i just got the prescription on monday. (i had all the blood tests done cuz i was in denial and wanted to find some other reason for my moods.)
but i have other meds that totally mess me up, i only take them cuz i get desperate. i have serax, propranolol, zoloft, xanax, and temazepam.... lol. and im worried about my liver?! but i take the zoloft when i get too depressed, and it throws me straight into rapid cycling, and then i take the temazepam to sleep each nite, the propranolol when i get hostile and aggressive, and xanax or serax when i am too manicky. crazy isnt it?
its like , the answer is right in front of me! i have the depakote prescribed by an MD who has expertise in bipolar disorder.... why dont i take it? maybe there is a part of me that does not want to be well. maybe i dont feel i deserve to be happy.