Yes, I play a fair amount. I bring in the toys, though T has allowed color pencils and crayons to stay at her office and the 2 puzzle's we've put together are in her office together. I've commented on her office needing to have toys. I also bring in picture books; lots of picture books. Most of the picture books are themed around a topic or issue I am processing through.

My T is non-judgmental about my toys or blanket. It is very important that she be non-judgmental about these things as I struggle with playing in general - relaxing to the point that I can joke around, be silly, not be self conscious about my body and how I move in space. She shows me excitement around play.

I think it has been and is something that is very useful for my process. I have lots of maternal transference and while my T provides me with experiences that are in some ways re-parenting, at no point does she pretend to be my mommy. She is always T. At times, the feelings and experiences I have through these activities touch a part of me that missed out on or still yearns for from my mommy. These moments help provide a foundation that I can build on and grow from. We spend a lot of time in adult space talking about the how, what, why's of the experiences as I come to understand them and assimilate both the loss of not having received them in the past and gain in feelings from now receiving them (in general and in terms of receiving them from T).