Private T has toys in his office as we discussed on another thread, which I suspect may have inspired this question

I can play with them if I want. My T wouldn’t have a problem with that. I sometimes seem to feel like it’s not ok, though. Sometimes I’ve sat there wanting to but not (some regressive thing going on). Other times I’ve put them on my T or asked him to hold them

No judgement from T. I don’t think a good-enough therapist should ever be harsh and if they are they need to recognise it and figure it out and repair the situation.

No idea on the last part sorry!