Tonight I went out with my brother and a friend. We went to a local dance club, and had a really good time. I drank GINGER ALE! And I didn't even mind. I had a really good time!
I think that a lot of the problem with drinking is having access to it when I'm triggered to drink by emotional problems. Like when I drank the week after Christmas... first off, I would never have had it in the apartment if my uncle hadn't given it to me. Second, I was lonely and depressed and triggered to numb my self. I had been itching for it since I opened that present on Christmas day. I also think that part of it is anticipation. I wasn't thinking about drinking at all today, and when we decided to go out on the spur of the moment, there was no build and no trigger toward drinking. I considered it at the bar, but I knew I didn't need it. It all depends of the timing and my mood, I guess. At least I know I can go out with them when I'm feeling good and be safe! So, this was a really good night.