kiya... so when you say your alright... are you alright? or alright? i am hoping your alright... i don't think i want to play anymore... i know that i need to go back on the anxiety meds...but i am so disappointed that i need too.

bb...thank you for your encouragement... yes i can call him until next tuesday then he is going to thailand... i did let him know that i was struggling with this and asked him if he had an appointment on monday, so it wouldn't be so long ... he is going to have his office manager call me...but she didn't call today.

on a somewhat possitive note... this has been the worst bout ever with my ptsd symptoms....it started on new years.... and i haven't cut... on friday it will be 9 weeks...so i guess i am getting better at coping in the midst of it all ... i just wish the thoughts and urges would go away...i am so tired...i don't know how much more of this i can handle... lyn