Thank you everyone it is good to come check things out again. I am still struggling but I am trying. I guess that counts for something. I don't know though, I am going through alot physically right now as well and I am so scared, we are all scared actually, not because of that, but because of other things. I made a not so good decision lately. I put us back into a bad situation, but have since got out of it, I hope. It would have ended badly as this guy wanted me to get pregnant and would not let me take birth control or any protection. He also would have been rather abusive in the end. I just quit talking to him, I didn't tell him anything, just stopped, otherwise I would have given in as I always do. Thank you again for all your warm thoughts and encouragement.

Jennifer