I said your bit^^ of a boss
Because I think
She told people
About me being
In hospital because
A woman connected
To my mums boss contacted
Me on Facebook
And sent her "commiserations"
To hear about my "illness"
And I was furious
And I came into work
And supervisor said
I looked pale
On the walk there
I must have got
My thoughts in a knot
After trying so hard to conceal it
I could lose my job
If my boss found out!
Or I would be bullied
Out the door.
Why did I feel that
Everytime I got a new job
At the back of my mind
This voice was reminding
Me that I was living
On borrowed time.
It was only a matter
Of time before
Somebody would discover
That I was hospitalised
As a suicidal teenager.
Every single time.

Omg are you actually
Doing work today ?
And toothless tam
Gave a snigger.
I did work, but at rush
Hour I was the least
Experienced and newest
Employee so I didn't
Have the confidence
And I hung back
And waited my turn
To deliver the orders.
I never neglected my
Assigned tables. But
I never got a chance.
The supervisor was so false
And I tried to talk to her
But the others
They thought I looked
Like a goth with
My complexion but I wasn't.
When I had my
Review I was given
Options, the supervisor
Said I did not get on
With the girls.
I could take a months pay
And they would give me a reference
Or I could argue my case to stay.
I went back an hour later.
I said I have thought about it
And I wish to leave.

I walked to Freds work just
Before five and my
Eyes watered when
I told him the situation.
His sister advised me
To try and get
A job in factory
By saying that a couple
Of the girls picked
On me, but I knew they were right.
I did not fit in
One comment is nothing .
Don't sweat it.

When I planned
To leave Fred
I bumped into
My mum's boss
On the way to Starbucks.
And she is just a nice person
That speaks to everyone.
I had changed my opinion
Because my Aunt
Had told more people.
And I said that
My mum and Dad
Had left no space
For me to go back
So I was going to
Declare myself as homeless.
I was dead serious.
But I went back to Fred.
And back to work.
And the boss had
Replaced me like
The girl before
Who hurt her back.
And I was relegated
To part time and
Confined to one machine only
Not starting till the afternoon.
And I started to listen
To my i-pod on my machine.
It was just mine
And I needed that.

Fred dictated most things.
I just wanted an easy life.
My manageress was an ***
One week and went
Around saying she
Was that stressed she would
End up in Bilbohall
And that I should get tested.
It was way below the belt.
Fred took it upon himself
To go and fight my corner
But he failed miserably
And my manageress boasted
About sending him
Home with his tail
Between his legs.
He just couldn't
Understand that people
Need to fight their own battles.
And I did not appreciate
Him being so rash
And nearly making
Things worse instead of better.
I told him not to do it.
I think what had
Really upset me
Was the supervisors chum
A little while before
Who said that Fred
Was I sure that he
Wasn't just using me for one thing?
I wasn't 16 years old.
We were in a relationship.
Speaking about it
At a later date to Fred
I said that my brother
Was kept on over her son
When they both
Worked for same company
And she turned sour
On me right around this time.
Why take it out on me?
That was so childish.
But thanks for helping
Me see that I could
Go back to education
And I COULD get financial aid.
Every cloud has a silver lining.