Hi guys lovely friends!Today was exhausting again but got done what I needed to.I was worried but thankfully my benefit money was paid they haven't stopped any of it yet.I collected it and paid it into the bank.I had a coffee at coffee shop and a sandwich.Then I got exhausted walking through a massive department store to order a remote control,cos mine stopped working and I can't turn on the telly.Got them to order me one and have it deliverd.Got a taxi home.

I feel more hopeful and positive I joined a disability support group that advocates for disabled people to help them keep and get back their benefits.It is £12 a month but worth it cos they will help me and they help people with no money at all for free.It is called Fightback4Justice and is here in the UK,they help with MR and appeals.They gave me some facts that gave me hope and I feel more confident that even if they stop my money I can win it back!

Tonight I have been resting but I can't get over this feeling of being physically exhausted!
And I haven't been able to watch TV for about 4 days.I also have a therapy session tomorrow,am visiting my mum,have to go to the doctors and fill in a form to access my medical records and get back in time for 4pm when my food shop is going to be delivered!So that will exhaust me more.Oh Well ,live in the moment that's tomorrow,rest now,eh?

We has some slight sunshine in south UK today but it turned chilly and windy towards the mid to late afternoon.I saw a homeless lad on a mattress and covered in blankets with his sweet little dog outside the department store in a quiet spot,he looked exhausted poor lad and tired,I know how he felt cos when in psychosis I was outside for 5 days and nights....it is unbearable,I spoke to him asking him how he really felt,he said he is ok bearing up,I felt powerless to help and guilty cos I am complaining and can survive I have a roof over my head but what can he do to get out of his situation?It is sad and a disgrace that the government does nothing to help.