I will pray for you hun...I know that, ughh I hate to call it a feeling, way of life...sending warm thoughts your way...maybe try coloring a pic with your son..it is soemthing that will engage him and maybe you can crack the foundation of the depression that has its hold on ya....have a race crawling...go worm hunting...see who can find the grossest thing in the fridge (that is killing 2 birds with one stone- you will get to clean out fridge!! and make gross stories to tickle sons fancy)...have a slurping contest and a pillow fight is always great!!!...a good tickle and the sound of his laughter can work miracles too...i often felt better from listening to their laughter...huggles, take care, and there is a light at the end of the tunnel...your friend if needed, melanie