Dear T,
I'm trying really hard not to think about the fact that the faculty will be meeting tomorrow and will presumably make a decision about whether to accept me. I wish I knew what time they were meeting. I feel like I'm going to be obsessively checking my e-mail all day...and then all day Thursday if I haven't heard anything. I'm trying to just assume I'll get rejected because I don't want to get my hopes up. But I just want to know...So then I can start figuring out what's next.

And I miss you, even though I just saw you yesterday. Sigh. Though I do see you Thursday. I think it's kinda bothering me a bit to know you'll be out Friday--I suspect maybe you're going out of town? But you couldn't be going too far, since you scheduled me for Monday...And I've managed not to look to see if one of those events is going on! I almost want to tell you that, but I feel like saying, "Hey, guess what, I didn't snoop!" seems like a weird thing to say. Because...obviously, that would mean I'd thought about it. But still, I guess it's progress if I thought about it but didn't do it. I'll have to see if it feels different this time having a transitional object...
Love,
LT