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Originally Posted by introspectiveme
I have a brother I don’t talk to. I have a mother who is sympathetic but she’s also quite forgetful. Every time I talk to her about my problems, I have to start over again. It’s frustrating, like banging my head against the wall
I have a father who thinks I’m seeking attention, he won’t spend a minute talking to me about my issues
I have friends who think I have no reason to be depressed. I have a good job, I am considered by many to be intelligent and also caring. The few friends I do have only show up when they need a drink. I have a few friends who have turned into passive aggressive nightmares because of the smallest of arguments
I have no sense of self worth or self respect. Absolutely none. This is sad, I know but I’ve been this way since I was 20. I am extremely sensitive to losing friendships, it tears me apart
I look quite old for my age, I’m 27, I am struggling but I still put in 8 hours a day or more
I have bad thoughts every day, i don’t live in a culture that is as understanding of depression as the west.
I don’t have social anxiety, I have general anxiety, I’m not a healthy person physically either, I’ve been suffering with TMD and an eye disorder and other things for almost 15 years now. I’ve sought treatment for the TMD but nothing works, and the eye problem I can ignore most of the time unless it is too bright or too dark
Lately a close friend of mine ended all ties with me. This was someone I could talk to everyday it’s been over a month now and I have no one now
I can honestly say I am completely alone right now and staring at a future that will get worse.
I just want someone to read this, that’s all
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For the longest time my mum thought I was just lazy rather than unwell . Because of her job she was sent on some mental health training. I think she understands a little now but she doesn't help much . She might send me a text now and then asking if I'm ok but that's the extent of her support .
I get on with my younger sister but now she is also depressed and we don't seem to communicate.
I have 2 brothers but one hates me and the other one is just out of prison .
My dad just gets mad at me and yells at me and puts me down so much that my depression gets worse.
Friends . I don't have any in real life. Everyone on pc have been very supportive . I'm glad I found this site .