((((((((((((( onlymedid ))))))))))))))))
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beloved mom. Everythingi you say you are feeling is quite normal sweety. If you find yourself going round and round with the emotions....that is normal too. I am glad you have family with you and also glad your stepdad has friends staying with him for a few days. None of you should be alone in your grief right now.
This next week or so while plans are being made and eveerything is sinking in will be sort of a whirlwind for all of you. Take each minute as it comes sweety and you will make it through. Be sure to give yourself the time you need for YOU. Bask in the knowledge that you know your mom loves you very much and even though her body is no longer there, her love will never end and she is always with you.
Bless you and your family. I'm sending you warm and loving thoughts and gentle hugs.

sabby