I feel like I live at least a double life. I as anybody else can be different people around different people but I barely can be me around any people.
There's a huge, gigantic, enormous disconnection between what I feel and what I say. And because it is so big it contributes and is probably the main reason why I feel disconnected with the world.
I don't know how to behave differently, it's so natural to pretend I am not feeling that it happens, I barely notice what I am feeling. It's in the back of my mind, but my thoughts are so quiet I hardly notice them, they come and go. Then if someone comments the same I realize I had thought about it. But I didn't notice before. They are superficial and quick.
And I believe that a way to my mental well-being was if I learn how to recognize them, how to share and specially how to let my guard down and not being afraid of sharing them.
I have (think I have) recognize what I need to do, I just have no idea on how to do it.

I could say other things I have noticed about my cognitive style... But not now.