I've always been 'off', right from my very first memories. I've never felt like I've fitted in, I've always had obsessive interests, I've always struggled socially, I've always been super intelligent but I've struggled a lot with staying in education. I also stim, constantly get told I'm too loud or too sensitive/emotional/too much to handle, I isolate myself a lot because I can't tolerate/understand most people (despite being lonely as hell)... Yeah, the list goes on.

I've been super, super depressed ever since I was... 8-9 years old? So that's a good 20 years of my life gone to being miserable and feeling like an outcast. I've been on and off med cocktails, I've done most types of therapy... I haven't really improved. I constantly feel like I'm 'broken' compared to everyone else and that fuels the depression, as it would when you feel like you don't belong anywhere. I was also diagnosed with ADHD when I was 14/15 or so, although I've never had any treatment for that.

I... Yeah, I'm really struggling right now. Especially since I'm starting to isolate from my depression. And I have a really hard time expressing exactly what I need and how I feel, so I tend to upset everyone around me because I either meltdown out of frustration, or I isolate because I think I'm burdening them and I don't know how to ask for support.

I have been diagnosed with borderline, but my current psychiatrist doesn't think that's the problem. Not that my current psychiatrist has any sort of diagnosis or treatment plan for me, but that's another story.

Is it possible for an Asperger's and ADHD combo to look like BPD? I really feel like I've had a major misdiagnosis so I'm not getting the treatment I need. Proper therapy would be a brilliant start.