I have bpd and I have alot of similarities to you in being depressed since childhood and isolating myself .
My daughter has Aspergus . I don't think the two are similar except that both gets alot of anxiety . My daughter is very loud. I don't think Aspergus and bpd are that similar though . It's just when I compare myself to my daughter I see so many differences . She is 16 and she is very dependant . She wouldn't know how to prepare a meal even if you showed her many times , I think it is self doubt with her and that her father has made her think she can't do things and she believes it . She lives with him . I think he has made her believe she can't do things so he can claim more money for her because when she lived with me she could do much more and she was much younger . I know my daughter wouldn't know what to do in certain situations . Like she doesn't want to be left alone without an adult present and won't travel on her own. For example if she was on a bus and it terminated earlier than her destination she wouldn't know what to do she would just panic .
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Originally Posted by samj40
I've always been 'off', right from my very first memories. I've never felt like I've fitted in, I've always had obsessive interests, I've always struggled socially, I've always been super intelligent but I've struggled a lot with staying in education. I also stim, constantly get told I'm too loud or too sensitive/emotional/too much to handle, I isolate myself a lot because I can't tolerate/understand most people (despite being lonely as hell)... Yeah, the list goes on.
I've been super, super depressed ever since I was... 8-9 years old? So that's a good 20 years of my life gone to being miserable and feeling like an outcast. I've been on and off med cocktails, I've done most types of therapy... I haven't really improved. I constantly feel like I'm 'broken' compared to everyone else and that fuels the depression, as it would when you feel like you don't belong anywhere. I was also diagnosed with ADHD when I was 14/15 or so, although I've never had any treatment for that.
I... Yeah, I'm really struggling right now. Especially since I'm starting to isolate from my depression. And I have a really hard time expressing exactly what I need and how I feel, so I tend to upset everyone around me because I either meltdown out of frustration, or I isolate because I think I'm burdening them and I don't know how to ask for support.
I have been diagnosed with borderline, but my current psychiatrist doesn't think that's the problem. Not that my current psychiatrist has any sort of diagnosis or treatment plan for me, but that's another story.
Is it possible for an Asperger's and ADHD combo to look like BPD? I really feel like I've had a major misdiagnosis so I'm not getting the treatment I need. Proper therapy would be a brilliant start.  |